What does christmas mean to someone like me? when i was a kid, christmas was everything to me...vacation,family,gifts,shopping, sleepovers, long talks on the phone, cantata, food and lots of 'em, church and of course the reason for the season--Jesus...

Now that i'm older but necessarily wiser , Christmas to me has changed a bit but in general still the same...no vacations like it used to be, less shopping, no more sleepovers, there's still the long talks over the phone, food, families (my and mine). I still get excited over the season.Im going to church like before and watch the Christmas cantata with my family. Jesus still celebrates His birthday in my heart and in my whole being.

Last Christmas was not very happy for me because of circumstances in my life that I had to go through. This year was the worst and best for me. Worst because I had to battle a storm, best because after the storm came my very own summer. I am making sure that this time im making most of everything although not everything's perfect and in place. Like the song goes "Jesus loves me this i know..." I know that He came to listen to my prayers and to save me. He heard my prayers and answered them.

Christmas has it's new meaning to me,  it's reason is deeper. I just wish that everyone will celebrate Jesus' birthday in their own way. To those who have battles to face, storms to get through,let Him lead the way, He'll help you get by. Trust me, I know..

I wish everyone a Merry Christmas and when I say merry I mean, Have a Blast!!!

im alive!!! imagine!!! i know this blog's been dormant for so long... just to update for those who care...i am okay,getting by each day... having a slow paced life is quite dragging at times... but there's always reason to brighten up every now and then..i'll write something about me more next time. for the meantime,i'll eat first coz im really hungry...see yah!!!

There's just so much more to take... so much more to go through... just when I thought I had it all, comes another blow. Harder,stronger and much exasperating.Too much...

Don't bother asking, i too don't know...

just want to scream in silence through writing... heard the song dry your eyes by the streets just now which i downloaded so i can play it over and over. wish i could tell myself to dry my eyes that easy.but i can't... tears are my constant companion for so many months now... i sometimes feel emptiness in my soul. life's been taking me to a long,tiring roller coaster ride that when i touched down made me feel dizzy...

ever heard Amy by Damien Rice? it says there's sumthin unusual,sumthin strange...just a little older---that's all. whew! been listening to songs like these which makes the mood even more gloomy. Damien Rice could make anyone including me feel so down and commit suicide! Haha! Think about leaving the whole world behind. As if it's that easy. Nah, that's really really hard esp. when you already have what you call your own...

so what to do in days like this???just hang on for another hour,then another hour,then another...then it will be another day...carry on...drown myself in tears again coz it's not unusual anymore. who knows what tomorrow brings!

I JUST WANT SCREAM SILENTLY SO NO ONE CAN HEAR!!!

Tickle tests interests me! Answering several questions regarding myself reminds me of the Psychological tests I studied and learnd from college. I am always eager to check the results and what the tests reveals about me... and what's cool is that it seems accurate...i don't know check the latest one I took time with and tell me if it's for real... :-)

Katherine, your Sweet Spirit makes you amazing

Have a heart? You certainly do. Thoughtful and warm, you make other people feel at ease and welcome whether you're hosting a party or just attending it. You can't help it — you're a sweetheart who's a great friend to just about everyone.

Sincere and kindhearted, you look out for those you love and will often put the needs of others before your own. It's no surprise friends and family look to you for advice and a shoulder to lean on. Helping other people makes you happy. That's the best super power any hero could have!

The whole family's sad, our favorite dog (chihuahua) Bastitch Barinaga went to heaven yesterday morning. :-) She was with us for 12 years. i was only 15 years old when we had her... She was diagnosed to have hepatitis. Our house will never be the same again without her loud excited bark... her "f" stunts,smile tricks and kawawa position...

I'll never forget our so many nights sleeping side by side, her loud snore---yes she's like a lil baby and our manicure and pedicure sessions---I always put on her colorful nail polish. Nauna naman sya sa chihuahua ni Paris Hilton!!! My bro Lee even made her leather violet vest.

I was driving when my kuyas texted that she passed away. I was so saddened by the news and memories of her played in my mind... I know that no dog can ever replace her. She'll always be the perfect dog...

I love you Bastitch girl, i'll see you when I get there and play with you again... *sob*

grabe, it's been 2 months since i updated my blog!

anyway, things are gettin better in some areas of my life...im back in church and i really missed my friends!i was so glad to see them again...life's been busy lately and priorities change...im making most out of my life and the situations im in.

God has been so good to me...He answers prayers in His own time. I learned that we just have to patiently wait. He listens and He cares more than anyone else...Despite the mess and trouble, I still have so many reasons to smile...

Im thankful for all my friends who are behind me. My family who loves me despite of... and my loved ones for sticking with me through thick and thin...

Be happy!

Tuesdays with Morrie is one book that deeply touched my inner senses to the point that i cried when i was reading it. There's just too many lessons learned in a little book like this.

Here are some lines that made an impact on me...

- "Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" [Morrie] says.
- The tension of opposites?
- "Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
- "A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."
Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.
- "A wrestling match." He laughs. "Yes, you could describe life that way.
- So which side wins, I ask?
- "Which side wins?"
- He smiles at me, the crinkled eye, the crooked teeth.
- "Love wins. Love always wins."

"You see," he says to the girl, you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too - even when you are in the dark. Even when you are falling."

"The fact is, there is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn't the family. It's become quite clear to me as I've been sick. If you don't have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don't have much at all. Love is supremely important. As our great poet Aulden said, "Love each other or perish.'" -- Morrie

- "Okay this is fear. Step away from it. Step away."
- I thought about how often this was needed in everyday life. How we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears, but we don't let those tears come because we are not supposed to cry. Or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we don't say anything because we are frozen with the fear of what those words might do to the relationship.
- Morrie's approach was exactly the opposite. Turn on the faucet. Wash yourself with the emotion. It won't hurt you. It will only help.

"The truth is, when our mothers held us, rocked us, stroked our heads-none of us ever got enough of that. We all yearn in some way to return to those days when we were completely taken care of-unconditional love, unconditional attention. Most of us didn't get enough." -- Morrie

"As long as we can love each other, and remember the feeling of love we had, we can die without ever really going away. All the love you have created is still there. All the memories are still there. You live on-in the hearts of everyone you have touched and nurtured while you were here."

"Death ends a life, not a relationship."

" Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance"

Life isn't always what we want it to be. There are so many twists and turns that may come along a smooth sailing path. Yes, we choose the road we want to tread on, but there will always be the question of destiny...

Whether I chose or was destined to this kind of life does not matter. It's the way I get through it that counts. Every morning is a blessing to me. Seeing the smile of my summer and feeling the rays of what we call "mr.shineshine" early in the morning and the peace that it brings us takes away the countless blues in my life even for just a moment's while...

I've always wanted to sing hehehe...i just get frustrated all the time so I'd rather take this test and I found out that I'm a...

Katherine , your music match is a Smooth Soul Singer

Like your music match Alicia Keys sings, "Some people want it all. But everything means nothing if I ain't got you." While you may come across as cool, you've got depths that run deeper than most. Sure material possessions are nice, but you know there's more to life than diamonds, fancy cars, and big houses. It's about connecting and sharing a deeper bond with others. And having someone to share those nice things with.

Maybe you're a romantic who's got a way with words. Maybe you're just more expressive than other folks. Whatever it is, one thing's for sure — you've got soul. And that's what makes you a smooth and sexy siren. Now that's hot!